I have just realized that pretty much the core of every struggle in my life is knowing when to say when. How many pieces of chocolate is too many? How many little touches to my kid's birthday party should I toil over? Should I check just one more website or spend five more minutes checking Facebook or should I just go to bed? How many toys will I buy at the big Target Toy Clearance? How many things should I sign up to help with at each of my kids' schools? Should I watch one more of my favorite TV shows or go fold the laundry?
I have a problem with knowing when to quit. Some of it is my perfectionist nature...there are some things in life that I want every single detail of to be perfect. When I'm planning a birthday party I want every little detail to be well thought out. That usually ends up with me spending a lot of time on things that the kids won't even notice.
Then there is the other side of me. The side with no self control. Yes, I would love a piece of candy...I'll have three! Wow...look at that great deal! I MUST buy that item and oh...look over there...another good deal! Yes, please! I just have a hard time saying enough is enough.
I figured by this time in my life I would have it all together and wouldn't struggle with this so much, but it's still there. I'm constantly overdoing it...sometimes for better, sometimes for worse. But in realizing that this is the source of all discontent in my life I am now able to do something about it! My goal for the new year is to have DISCIPLINE in all areas of my life. I just need to practice what I preach to my kids and enjoy all things in moderation and say "when" more often. :) Wish me luck!